Like most females at some point in their life, I have struggled with body issues. The difference with me is that there was never one moment in my life, but rather is has been all of my life. I've never been rail thin and I have never been obese. I have always been in that in between place where I could never lose the few pounds I wanted to and I struggled to never gain the few pounds I didn't want.
Over the last 4 years, the stress of my job, living on my own in a city and having an eventful social life has caused me to tip towards to heavier side. Between 2011 and now, I went from 155 to 194 pounds. I could continue to blame the stress of work, but lets face it: I'm lazy, I like food and I hate working out. There. I said it. My weight is largely my problem. I've done some things to try and help it: I joined a gym (which I rarely go to), I got a trainer (who I only see once a week for 25 minutes) and I try to eat healthy (which means I have one healthy meal and then congratulate myself by having a whole package of sour patch kids.)
It wasn't until this week that I finally decided that if I'm going to hold myself accountable, then I have to hold myself fully accountable. My goal is to lose 65 pounds by this time next year. After reading success stories online, this seems like a completely doable goal, (provided I actually make myself do it) which brings me to this blog. I've never been one to motivate myself when it comes to working out. I'll sign up for sign language classes, improv classes, wine tasting classes and even banjo classes, but I can't bring myself to walk the .8 miles to the gym for a 30 minute workout. Talk about a waste of money. The only way I know I'll hold myself responsible is if others are holding me responsible too, and hopefully I can help inspire others and blah blah blah.
I'm not going to cleanse and I'm not going to go on fad diets. I am simply going to eat smarter and work out harder and maybe cut back on my alcohol intake (my wallet could stand to be a bit fatter). If I fail, I've only myself to blame. If I succeed, then I can finally say I stuck to something and it paid off. So, here I go.
NOTE: I do have some photos of me now for a before reference, but given that I am still insecure, I'm choosing to not post them right now. Once I see some change, I'll post for reference.
